Satisfaction

Our professor said that they have really given us a lot of considerations to pass. Well that's good to hear! We all passed :D Let us all celebrate that. However, I don't know -- It just doesn't motivate me. Parang sinasabi na, pumasa kami dahil naging considerate sila. Period. Pero hindi kami pumasa kasi magaling kami. Yun ang dating sa akin. Hindi ako lubusang matuwa o maging proud dahil siguro sa katotohanan na iyon.

Iba kasi dapat ang feeling na ginawa mo ang lahat at naging maganda ang resulta.

Subalit, imbis na lugmukin ko ang sarili ko dahil nga alam kong naging considerate lang sila, sa tingin nasa sarili na namin iyon kung tatanggapin namin o hindi. What is it that will make us worth it? Probably, it's no longer about the grades -- it's going to be based on how we pursue the real thing. Kami na bahala i-satisfy at i-fill in ang mga gusto naming mangyari -- to be able to consider ourselves, WORTH IT.

Hayaan na yung iniisip ng iba -- basta ang mahalaga yung iniisip namin sa sarili namin.

Pasado na yan, hindi na yan mawawala.

Wala kang magagawa at pasado ka.

Kung hindi ka masaya na pasado ka, humanap ka ng paraan para masabi na "oo, tama, pasado talaga ako"

Satisfy yourself with the things that you want.

Fill in the blanks of the things you want to know until the time comes, when you think you've reached your goal.

Mas gusto kong ma-satisfy ang sarili ko, kaysa makitang pasado ako.

Mas gusto ko na maghirapan ako, at makitang pasado ako.

Mahirapan, bumagsak -- bumawi -- pumasa = greatest glory.

Probably right now, I consider myself as a failure.

I don't know if I think differently -- or I just really want something to be worth it.

So my goal is to DO ALL MY BEST for the board exam and THAT will only be the time that I will embrace that passing mark.

I pray I'd be disciplined, patient, and strong enough to REACH my goal.

*fingers crossed*