All grown up

I feel that I am a grown up O_O

Not sure if I was supposed to say that.

Back in the third grade, I remember getting the news that I am not part of the honor roll. I remember crying and being so down about it.

So during fourth grade, I told my mom, "Ako nalang..." I told her that I'll start to study on my own. Wow. I've said that. What if I didn't do so? LOL.

I remember saying it at the same time it felt, uneasy. Like I'm in the border of crying and feeling proud. However, perhaps that was the first time I claimed responsibility for myself. Grade four -- that was me being 10 years old. Double my age now plus one.

Now I'm feeling that I want to be more responsible of myself.

I think being a grown up is not based on the age or it starts when you step to college, or get out of it. It's not measured by getting a job or getting married and having kids. I think being a grown up is when you feel you feel that you are responsible for yourself. Like there is a big portion in your mind that started believing that I have to DO things. I have plans, I want this and that -- I want to get something. It's like you wanted to fill in the gaps in your life. I want to live a self-directed life. WOW.

WELL anyway, I think it is a purely subjective matter -- you say it, when you feel like to.

I wonder, what others define "Grown-up" as.

Growing up is a process, not an event

Paul B. Jamison