Hang on

Well looks like I just have to hang on. 

I realize that it's not like I'm alone with this kind of everyday living.

My movements are my choice so, I got no one to blame. I am also not yet eager to seek opinions -- well there are moments but there is no one right now who knows the profession -- someone who has been there and have done that. 

What I'm saying is that I'm walking a path that is new. I got no guides, so I got to find them. I know my batchmates -- but we all are new in this. Some might have relatives, which I don't, others might have connections, which I also do not have. Well that's just how it rolls. I get to graduate, I get the degree -- I hope I'm not going to go for something... unrelated. 

Well right now I do not know what I am capable to do. I'm a very shaky person, my mind can change in a snap and my frustrations, might be the one to make a decision. But I probably should keep my faith and hold on to my hopes. I'm SLOW I know. I'm stubborn as well. I want to make things move and help is like... haha well you do not want to hear my words of comparison -- it's kind of boastful. 

I really don't know what runs in a female blood... or hormones. Mood swings sucks.

Women are build to be emotional. 

I am emotional

And you know, men, I think they think more... look for a solution. I DON'T know probably I just want  sometimes to think like a man -- like "how to solve this" or that.

Well okay I got my ideas with the series stuff I'm watching. LOL. 

Men seems to be capable of solving matters more than women -- well that is what the media portrays. 

Well I've talked to the friends of my friend... someone... and sometimes it gets my attention when I complain about stuff and they will say something that will get me like "oh yea you're right"

Here comes the idea that one must think before speaking. 

One bad habit of mine: I threw out complains first before thinking.

BUT hey sometimes it helps. Because solution will jsut suddenly snap after complaining. LOL.

Welll I don't know

Teach me.

I'm not yet that sociable to others to learn how they think. 

:))

Wow my posts topic got kind of off.