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I need to set things straight, go to a new place and live a new life o_o 

Seriously, I feel I will be insane here in our house. There's no thrill, there is no challenge there is nothing new. I'm getting sick of it I almost want to vomit. I need to find where my strength is and walk on the streets of this city or anywhere! I'm a house person, so going out alone is not my thing but I need to or else nothing will happen. 

Lately, honestly I have become a bum, like I only play and sleep and eat. I refused to do house chores and my room is so messy as well. I pity myself :)) I do not have anyone to look up to. Honestly, my parents are of no help, they are passive as well now that they are retired and, of course they would not care. They care probably but they won't do something to help. Get my point? It's up to me.